Looking for my motivation, my ride or die... My better half
Recently I came to the point where, I just really need that special someone in my life again... Someone that can build and grow with me. I have many goals and just need that reason and support to again. Once upon a time (lol). I was really successful and really happy with my life. But I gave everything up to play the homemaker with my ex. Big mistake. Now I'm 30 and much rebuilding my life from start. It's hard and I know this may sound weird but even though I built everything on my own before... I got used to having someone to come home to, someone to cuddle with and my best friend, to enjoy life with. And missing that, makes it even harder this time. Don't get me wrong, I do just fine financially. I never go without. But I'm still a long way from where I wanna be. And I'm tired of random dates and more so want to focus on what I'm looking for from start. So trying this... Hoping it works. Okay so I'm gonna be up front about me... I hustle, I have a couple sugar daddies and I also got a legitimate side business... That I know I can develop into something great. I also care for my grandfather. And since I was depressed and lonely, I've gained some weight. I'm a size 16 now and used to being about a 12. So I'm really working on getting back in shape and it would be nice to have someone with the same kinda situation. I know I can't be the only one! I smoke Newports but I seriously, really want to quit... It really seems like it will be the hardest thing I'll ever do. So I need someone that is serious about quitting too or is a non-smoker that don't mind me smoking now and will help nicely and understandingly motivate me to quit. I also smoke - . That's something I'm not willing to give up but definitely want to slow down. I don't drink much but when I do I like to let loose and just have a blast with my awesome friends. Oh and this may be little weird but I prefer someone without pets but loves them... Because I have 2 amazing dogs, I would never give up. I don't have any so they're like mine. I'm a bit different and more complex than most people... At least that's what I've been told. I'm a total and love to dress up and be at my sexiest. Hair, nails, cute , shopping, are like extreme essentials in my life. I like to spoil myself and always get my way. But only because it's usually the right way. But anyways... Sometimes I just want some comfortable pants, a cute comfortable T-shirt and my hair tied up, relax and let someone else take control for a minute. As far as the role in a relationship, I'm happier in the more dominant roll. And I'm only attracted to feminine woman. I have a really face and it's really important to me that you do too. I do much care about your size... Just no bigger than an 18, maybe 20 if your taller. Also you must be clean and I really prefer shaved or close too. I'm very sexual and very open-minded. I am experienced with other woman but it don't matter to me if you are or not. As long as you have a high drive. I also really, really love massages... My back, my cute feet, etc. So that is an absolute must. I need a woman that knows how to put in a little extra work in some areas, why I do same in other areas. That being a big one. Okay a little bit more about me... My favorite colors are green and pink. I'm really laid back and it takes a whole lot to get to me. But I'm seriously the wrong person to piss off. It's really hard for me to forgive and really easy for me to just turn my feelings off... When I know it's what's best. I think communication, loyalty and ultimately respect are the foundation of any kind of relationship. And I also believe if someone ignores that, they really don't truly care about you and will certainly do it again. So I really don't believe in giving chances... Just the initial opportunity. I love to laugh and make people laugh so I'm kinda silly. I'm really outspoken but always as respectful as possible. I'm smart and have shittons of common sense. That's important to me too. I love to travel but taking care of my grandpa kinda limits that anymore. I own a home but it needs a work. I want someone that ain't afraid to put in work... So we can make it our own. I also have a car but it really ain't anything special. I'm seriously thinking about giving it to my brother and getting a new one. I just really like not having the car payment so I been putting it off. I love music and try to listen to it more than watch tv. It motivates me an gets me up dancing... Which is exercise I need. Oh and I hate mess and love to be organized and structured. But I admit recently I have let things get a little outta control. I need that motivation to get back right. I don't like being single and I really just ain't at my best alone. I'm from Flint but really don't matter where your from... As long as if we work, you can come here. Because I can always travel to you, or you to me or . So distance now, shouldn't be an issue. But I am looking for someone that is ready and willing to meet soon so we can see if we click face to face. I believe you can't really get to know someone any other way. I know it's gonna make this harder since I'm putting everything out there and I am kinda looking for a certain type of person. But I think this will work best for me and really hope I find that special someone by Christmas!